Haruki Murakami(why runners like to run long distances):
"It's precisely because of the pain,
precisely because we want to overcome that pain,
that we can get a feeling, through this process, of really being alive."

tried AL Pacino

PSALM 27,14 
Harre - hoffen, warten, harren, ersehnen / Das Wort drückt das Hoffen oder Sehnen der menschen aus, das allzuoft hart auf die Probe gestellt wird oder sich als vergeblich erweist: Hiob 6,19/30,26/Ps 69,21/JES5,2/5,4/5,7/59,9/59,11
- Bei dem Hoffen, das sich an Jawe wendet: Wer auf ihn hofft , ist trotz aller Anfechtung voll Zuversicht: Ps39,8/130,5/Jes25,9/26,8/33,2/Jer14,19/Jer14,22
denn solche Hoffnung ist nicht vergeblich: Ps25,3/25,5/25,21/Ps37,9/Ps69,7/Kla3,25
deshalb will der fromme ausharren: Ps27,14/Ps37,34/Hos12,7
auf den Herrn!
sei mutig - stark sein, fest werden, ergreifen, festhalten. Das Wort bezeichnet die Staerke eines Volkes: Ri1,28/Jos17,13/2.Sam10,11/1.koe20,23
die Macht eines Koenigs: 2.Chr26,15
oder die schwere einer Hungersnot: 1.M41,56f/2.Koe25,3
oder einer Schlacht: 2.Koe3,26
Die Hand zu stärken heisst Mut zu fassen: 2.Sam2,7/Hes22,14
oder im Piel Mut zu machen, zu ermutigen, stärken, helfen: Ri9,24/1.Sam23,16/Jes35,3/Jer23,14/Esr1,6
Im militärischen Sinner findet es fuer die Befestigung con Wehranlagen oder Städten oder eines Reiches Verwendung bzw. fuer das Ausbessern von Gebäuden.
Im Hifil bezeichnet es die Verstärkung  einer Wache: Jer51,12
oder auch das Ausbessern der Stadtmauer aber auch das Überwältigt werden von einer Not.
Die Aufforderung stark zu sein steht häufig in Verbindung mit einem Verheissungswort und bezieht sich auch auf die Treue zu Jahwe und das Halten des Gesetzes
und dein Herz sei sark,
und harre auf den HERRN!

PS 27

14 Wait for the Lord;

be strong and take heart

and wait for the Lord.

Today free day - we go and want to watch EPIC with the kids - then to a birthday-party - then slowly ending the day - i miss GOD - it is a good feeling. Will be with him soon! HE IS MY HOPE AND MY STRENGTH

Joh 3,27 To this John replied, “A person can receive only what is given them from heaven.

What will God give me today?

Rom15,13 was rewarding!
Sometimes i am so emotional, i don't want to be hopeful because i can not let go of my emotions.(even they are bad!)
I guess it is pride.
because i am convinced MY FEELINGS ARE THE TRUE & AND I HAVE THE RIGHT TO LIFE THEM OUT...

GOD help me!
Rom15,13 May the God of hope fill you with all joy and peace as you trust in him, so that you may overflow with hope by the power of the Holy Spirit.

To have a skype-call where you do not really know what to say - but having a lot of feelings or thoughts or questions and just 1hour time.
God help me to stay hopeful

~ Rom15,13 May the God of hope fill you with all joy and peace as you trust in him, so that you may overflow with hope by the power of the Holy Spirit. ~

Ps 3,7

Ps 7,6

Ps 9,19

Ps 10,12

Ps 132,8

Arise, Lord!

~ share the greatest victory of God in your life with at least some one today ~

Ps 4,3

Know

that the Lord has set apart his faithful servant

for himself;

the Lord hears when I call to him.

We have Campus-DEVO
We look at Acts 3 / 4 / 5 / 6
We want to learn from the first disciples
We ask us the question, what practically can we learn?
WHAT DO WE DO ACCORDING TO THEM - TODAY - HERE IN BERLIN?
Looking forward to hear great ideas :-)

What will happen today: Meeting / ev. Mission / ...? /

Ps 27,8 My heart says of you, “Seek his face!” Your face, Lord, I will seek.

Now - showing the truth to some one very open - i am confident(because i did it so many times?) Am i confident in GOD? - Or in my experience? - God help me! MOVE OUR HEARTS!

i tried again

After retreat - we could not sleep much - we did a lesson - GOD HELPED - GOD SHOWED ME, HE IS WITH ME - i am so thankful!

i don't feel it - but still ture

Free-day in germany: Played soccer with my Son | 8.30am-9.30am | it was incredible | he scored 30times :-)

marriage-retreat very soon

i did Sport this morning - first time since ever, that i do sport! - feels awesome!

Trying while praying to imagine Jesus in front of the high priest

Had my walk with God - was so much looking forward to it - i am learning how to go about God

I was sick
watched Bible-Movies - realized how real it was; that Abraham sacrificed his Son! EXTREM!
Jesus - pure Soul and out of him - giving it all
cried so much
-

some one told: You can not learn every day something new
today i thought - coming home from bringing the kids to school: At least i can reflect and see what i learned. maybe i had to go through the same lesson like yesterday.
-

i am not wise

and:

"You say to yourself,

'If she can do it, why can't I?'"

~

Christian Kim

and i like this:

1. We all possess talents

2. We're unsure

how to develop those talents to their full potential.

~

Daniel Coyle - The Talent Code

We are what we repeatedly do.

Excellence, then, is not an act, but a habit.

- Aristotle -

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I sometime become emotional because the word of GOD is so clear but my hearers will not get it! Quiet, peaceful repeating what is written maybe is more helpful - i am not sure. For the word of God is alive and active. Sharper than any double-edged sword, it penetrates even to dividing soul and spirit, joints and marrow; it judges the thoughts and attitudes of the heart.(hebr4)
I am not so alive - unfortunately
I am not so active - WOW!!!
I am not so sharp - unfortunately ... again - how cool would it be if i would become more sharp!
!a double-edged sword - cutting, going in, cutting going out!
I am not able to penetrate so deep!!! How grateful would be all my friends, if i just always could see their true motives and heart - if i truly could understand them - often i do not understand them.
I am not able to divide soul and spirit: I could not even describe the difference. I do not even know why it would be important to know the difference.
I can not divide joints and marrow. I have no idea, why this would be effective and important for the word of God.
I can not judge the thoughts!
I can not judge the attitude!
I do not see the heart most fo the time!

All things the word of God can do - i am not able to do! NOT IN THIS PERFECT WAY!

GOD PLEASE MOVE IN THE PEOPLE, WHEN THEY READ YOUR SCRIPTURE!
And show me how to grow in understanding more my friends around me!
GIVE ME WISDOM - what to do!

Without friendship - is it even possible for people to see the truth?
Had a hard talk today with a friend - still we are not close - but definitely the trust needs to grow!
Hope we continue in other heartfelt ways.

Time is flying!

GOD is able to do anything
t h a n k f u l l y

We were out - awesome people and fellowship - some just did not come.
It is just so good to be together. Seeing each other is better then staying home alone!

Now i am home
Tonight is a big game
i would like to see it but there is things to do -
GOD HELP ME TO HAVE THE RIGHT ATITUDE
!!!

I want to fix my eyes on Jesus!

One comment in the DEVO i found interesting:
Pray specific for things only God can do!
What would that be today?

It has been a few day, since i wrote what i learned:
Sunday: Just keep on doing every thing confident and joyful
Monday: i did nothing - except prayer-walking | doing nothing is not smart
Tuesday: DEVO was awesome - Prayer works // I have to be more clear on what i want and go for it!
I am always to slow

Sunday / Monday / Tuesday / Wednesday > will go now and walk with God
I feel the difference, since i could have a walk with God every day

Today we have the Singles 1.Mai retreat.
Mission-Time

God will bless the day!