Rom15,13 was rewarding!
Sometimes i am so emotional, i don't want to be hopeful because i can not let go of my emotions.(even they are bad!)
I guess it is pride.
because i am convinced MY FEELINGS ARE THE TRUE & AND I HAVE THE RIGHT TO LIFE THEM OUT...

GOD help me!
Rom15,13 May the God of hope fill you with all joy and peace as you trust in him, so that you may overflow with hope by the power of the Holy Spirit.