1.Cor4,[we will see, how i can do it differently - so it is touching me more - maybe i don't take as much text]1 So then, men ought to regard us as servants of Christ and as those entrusted with the secret things of God. > I am  - have to be - a servant of the lord. I am entrusted with the secret things of God.
2 Now it is required that those who have been given a trust must prove faithful. > I have to be faithful to the entrusted things. AM I ? 
3 I care very little if I am judged by you or by any human court; indeed, I do not even judge myself.  > No idea what does it mean - every body is permanently judging him self. more or less. How does he do that?
4 My conscience is clear, but that does not make me innocent. > If it just my conscience who makes me feel fine - it does not mean anything. It is the Lord who judges me.  > What the Lord does think and judge me  - this is it.
5 Therefore judge nothing before the appointed time; wait till the Lord comes. He will bring to light what is hidden in darkness and will expose the motives of men's hearts. > EXPOSE THE MOTIVES OF MEN's HEART - OF MY HEART. WHY AM I DOING WHAT I AM DOING! THIS IS ALL ABOUT IT! At that time each will receive his praise from God.
6 Now, brothers, I have applied these things to myself and Apollos for your benefit, so that you may learn from us the meaning of the saying, Do not go beyond what is written. Then you will not take pride in one man over against another. / 6 Dies aber, Brüder, habe ich auf mich und Apollos bezogen um euretwillen, damit ihr an uns lernt, nicht über das hinaus zu denken, was geschrieben ist, damit ihr euch nicht aufbläht für den einen gegen den anderen.  > Don't do it! Do i do that? Do i take pride over a other brother?
7 For who makes you different from anyone else? > I know - nothing!
What do you have that you did not receive? > Nothing - i know!
And if you did receive it, why do you boast as though you did not?  > No reason why i would do that - still i do it - i guess because i am so insecure! I need to aprove myself!
8 Already you have all you want! > OK
Already you have become rich!  > Yes - i do often not realize it or believe it!
You have become kings- and that without us! How I wish that you really had become kings so that we might be kings with you!
9 For it seems to me that God has put us apostles on display at the end of the procession, > HOW PAUL FEELS like men condemned to die in the arena. > HOW PAUL FEELS We have been made a spectacle to the whole universe, to angels as well as to men.  > HOW PAUL FEELS.
10 We are fools for Christ, > often i am not! I am prideful! but you are so wise in Christ! > I CAN UNDERSTAND PAUL! We are weak, but you are strong! > I UNDERSTAND PAUL You are honoured, we are dishonoured!  > ... PAUL IS SO OPEN - IT SOUNDS SARCASTIC - EVEN FRUSTRATED!
11 To this very hour we go hungry and thirsty,  > I am not - i am to comfortable. we are in rags, we are brutally treated, we are homeless. > No i am not  - i am to comfortable.
I AM SO STUPID COMFORTABLE. WHAT IS GOING ON GOD WITH ME! WHY DO I HAVE SO LITTLE FAITH!?
12 We work hard with our own hands. > No i don't. When we are cursed, we bless; > SO DIFFICULT TO DO. when we are persecuted, we endure it; > I have such a easy life.
13 when we are slandered, we answer kindly. > BE KIND CHRISTOPH - BE KIND AL THE TIME ALL THE TIME. Up to this moment we have become the scum of the earth, the refuse of the world. > How in the world can Paul enjoy being a Christian if he feels like this. Be a Christina on such a crazy mission-trip like he is on!
14 I am not writing this to shame you, but to warn you, as my dear children. > Warn you from what!?
15 Even though you have ten thousand guardians in Christ, you do not have many fathers, for in Christ Jesus I became your father through the gospel. /

15 Denn wenn ihr zehntausend Zuchtmeister in Christus hättet, so doch nicht viele Väter; denn in Christus Jesus habe ich euch gezeugt durch das Evangelium. 

16 Ich bitte3euch nun, seid meine Nachahmer! 

 > I don't know why Paul is saying this.
16 Therefore I urge you to imitate me. > IMITATE ME, says Paul. WOULD I EVER BE ABLE TO SAY THAT? Brother X, imitate me. ? -  is my life worth to be imitated? 
17 For this reason I am sending to you Timothy, my son whom I love, who is faithful in the Lord. He will remind you of my way of life in Christ Jesus, which agrees with what I teach everywhere in every church.  > The teaching of Paul was visible in his life. Life and teaching in Paul was the same!
18 Some of you have become arrogant, as if I were not coming to you.  > Paul just is direct!
19 But I will come to you very soon, if the Lord is willing, and then I will find out not only how these arrogant people are talking, but what power they have. > It is not about talking! 
20 For the kingdom of God is not a matter of talk but of power.
21 What do you prefer? Shall I come to you with a whip, or in love and with a gentle spirit?

 > OK, i read it quickly now.
I see how Paul feels.
I see what he endures.
I see i am comfortable.

I guess i just see the Vers20: FOR THE KINGDOM OF GOD IS NOT A MATTER OF TALK BUT OF POWER!

how much talk i do provide! I do people leed to! Talk, writing, agreeing, jus words all the time!

Where do i see a opportunity to be in God and his power TODAY?
meeting over lunch
meeting late afternoon
before paper reading
Devo preparation
Phone calls

What do i think about doing on my way.
TALK TO SOME BODAY!

Blog about conversations i had with people! - INTERVIEWS ABOUT GOD!
This is it! Engage!

trying

It is good to read through the Bible. But what did i really toke today for the day? I think i need to change some thing.

1.Cor3,1 Brothers, I could not address you as spiritual but as worldly- mere infants in Christ. > Wow - after the nice word in the beginning Paul is super direct - what does he say next?
2 I gave you milk, not solid food, for you were not yet ready for it. > Again, he just tells them: I think the people i know would like to hear reasons. Indeed, you are still not ready. > Again. Paul really comes after them!
3 You are still worldly. > Now he sais it again! You are still worldly! For since there is jealousy and quarrelling among you, are you not worldly?/3 denn ihr seid noch fleischlich. Denn wo Eifersucht1o. Neid; o. Rivalität und Streit unter euch ist, seid ihr da nicht fleischlich und wandelt nach Menschenweise? > This is the reason for his strong words here. Are you not acting like mere men? > Jealousy - quarrelling : this is worldly! / Am i jealouse? About whom: Maybe i feel other just have more respect and i just get used! Am i in quarrelling? No. I don't think so. Am i in competition? With whom - i decide i am a servent not some body else....
But if i don't feel respected i can not do it. Or should i just be trampled? For what about my selfe should i fight for? Nothing! I just should fight for the others. Help them to see their sin, so they can be more free!
4 For when one says, I follow Paul, and another, I follow Apollos, are you not mere men? > Do i really follow Jesus? Just him? Why is it important to me what other think about me? If i follow some one, just him, because i love him - why do i car about other who do maybe the same. Why is important what other think! ... MORE LATER - need to go to dentist now. :-( 
5 What, after all, is Apollos? And what is Paul? Only servants, through whom you came to believe- as the Lord has assigned to each his task. > Whom am i following? Jesus alone. So - i don't car what other think of me. THE ONLY THING WHAT COUNTS IS  - WHAT DOES JESUS THINKS OF ME! THE REST IS UNIMPORTANT! TOTALY!!!!
Believe it Christoph - Jesus did i wrong to others? How? Yesterday? Did i wrong to others?6 I planted the seed, Apollos watered it, but God made it grow. > God makes it grow. I see the people who planted stuff about God in me. This was helpful. I am so thankful for this and still i need to learn so much more! Some other watered me. Encouraged me. Kept me a life. Helped me up. BUT THE GROWS IS FROM GOD. The real deal of being a life is from God. TO GOD IS ALL THE CREDIT! 
7 So neither he who plants nor he who waters is anything, but only God, who makes things grow. > I plant some times - i am not anything. I water some times - i am not anything.
BUT GOD MAKES ME GROW - IF GOD DOES NOT MAKE ME GROW - WHAT CAN I DO!
GOD HAVE MERCY ON ME PLEASE 
8 The man who plants and the man who waters have one purpose, and each will be rewarded according to his own labour. > They will get what they deserve. No worries. I too will get what i deserve. 
9 For we are God's fellow-workers; you are God's field, God's building. > I am God's field. I am God's building. GOD PLEASE BLESS ME!!!!! 
10 By the grace God has given me, I laid a foundation as an expert builder, and someone else is building on it. But each one should be careful how he builds. > Yes - i should be carful how i build. I should become a expert builder. I don't know nothing. How to be careful? How to become a expert builder? 
11 For no-one can lay any foundation other than the one already laid, which is Jesus Christ. > This is clear - of corse! 
12 If any man builds on this foundation using gold, silver, costly stones, wood, hay or straw,  > OK
13 his work will be shown for what it is, because the Day will bring it to light. It will be revealed with fire, and the fire will test the quality of each man's work. > Christoph use Gold, Silver, Costly Stones! NO wood or hay or straw.
So what is Gold?
What is Silver?
What is costly sones?
Maybe i can find out through old testament - for what they used this material in building the temple... ones i will find out - not know.14 If what he has built survives, he will receive his reward. > Reward. What is that all about. And if God makes it grow, how then should i think about building. Why he changes from nature to architecture?
I have no time to find out now!15 If it is burned up, he will suffer loss;  he himself will be saved, but only as one escaping through the flames. > OK 
16 Don't you know that you yourselves are God's temple and that God's Spirit lives in you?  > I am not aware enough. I am a temple! A building! The holy spirit is the life.
17 If anyone destroys God's temple, God will destroy him; for God's temple is sacred, and you are that temple. > Wow - maybe the strongest vers against smoking. I will be destroyed by God if ia m not careful with my body! Is it really the body, what he is talking about?
18 Do not deceive yourselves. If any one of you thinks he is wise by the standards of this age, he should become a fool so that he may become wise.  > To learn it all over again.?  Why
19 For the wisdom of this world is foolishness in God's sight. As it is written: He catches the wise in their craftiness; / »Er fängt die Klugen im ´Netz` ihrer eigenen Schlauheit.«  > I believe.
20 and again, The Lord knows that the thoughts of the wise are futile. / »Der Herr kennt die Gedanken der Klugen; er weiß, wie unnütz ihre Überlegungen sind.« > I believe
21 So then, no more boasting about men! All things are yours, / Alles gehört doch euch:
22 whether Paul or Apollos or Cephas or the world or life or death or the present or the future- all are yours, > WHAT - REALLY? HOW IN THE WORLD!
23 and you are of Christ, and Christ is of God.
> So what does it mean? Wisdom of the world is meaningless. It is foolishness in God's sight.
God knows every thing. Even the darkest places of my heart he knows!
He knows my motivations

And then he says : ALL ARE YOURS.
Comes down. Anyway - ALL IS YOURS. WHAT ARE YOU SO BLOWN UP ore arrogant or sophisticated?
Calm down. You have already every thing.
Do not be anxious, you have it all. More is not possible! You can not have more if you have it ALL!
AND I BELONG CHRIST, CHRIST IS OF GOD. I AM IN THE DIRECT CONNECTION TO MY CREATOR!
Am i still?
Don't feel like.
God what is to do?

1.Cor3,1 Brothers, I could not address you as spiritual but as worldly- mere infants in Christ. > Wow - after the nice word in the beginning Paul is super direct - what does he say next?
2 I gave you milk, not solid food, for you were not yet ready for it. > Again, he just tells them: I think the people i know would like to hear reasons. Indeed, you are still not ready.  > Again. Paul really comes after them!
3 You are still worldly. > Now he sais it again! You are still worldly! For since there is jealousy and quarrelling among you, are you not worldly?/3 denn ihr seid noch fleischlich. Denn wo Eifersucht1o. Neid; o. Rivalität und Streit unter euch ist, seid ihr da nicht fleischlich und wandelt nach Menschenweise? > This is the reason for his strong words here. Are you not acting like mere men? > Jealousy - quarrelling : this is worldly! / Am i jealouse? About whom: Maybe i feel other just have more respect and i just get used! Am i in quarrelling? No. I don't think so. Am i in competition? With whom - i decide i am a servent not some body else....
But if i don't feel respected i can not do it. Or should i just be trampled? For what about my selfe should i fight for? Nothing! I just should fight for the others. Help them to see their sin, so they can be more free!
4 For when one says, I follow Paul, and another, I follow Apollos, are you not mere men? > Do i really follow Jesus? Just him? Why is it important to me what other think about me? If i follow some one, just him, because i love him - why do i car about other who do maybe the same. Why is important what other think! ... MORE LATER - need to go to dentist now. :-( 
5 What, after all, is Apollos? And what is Paul? Only servants, through whom you came to believe- as the Lord has assigned to each his task.
6 I planted the seed, Apollos watered it, but God made it grow.
7 So neither he who plants nor he who waters is anything, but only God, who makes things grow.
8 The man who plants and the man who waters have one purpose, and each will be rewarded according to his own labour.
9 For we are God's fellow-workers; you are God's field, God's building.
10 By the grace God has given me, I laid a foundation as an expert builder, and someone else is building on it. But each one should be careful how he builds.
11 For no-one can lay any foundation other than the one already laid, which is Jesus Christ.
12 If any man builds on this foundation using gold, silver, costly stones, wood, hay or straw,
13 his work will be shown for what it is, because the Day will bring it to light. It will be revealed with fire, and the fire will test the quality of each man's work.
14 If what he has built survives, he will receive his reward.
15 If it is burned up, he will suffer loss; he himself will be saved, but only as one escaping through the flames.
16 Don't you know that you yourselves are God's temple and that God's Spirit lives in you?
17 If anyone destroys God's temple, God will destroy him; for God's temple is sacred, and you are that temple.
18 Do not deceive yourselves. If any one of you thinks he is wise by the standards of this age, he should become a fool so that he may become wise.
19 For the wisdom of this world is foolishness in God's sight. As it is written: He catches the wise in their craftiness;
20 and again, The Lord knows that the thoughts of the wise are futile.
21 So then, no more boasting about men! All things are yours,
22 whether Paul or Apollos or Cephas or the world or life or death or the present or the future- all are yours,
23 and you are of Christ, and Christ is of God.

It is to much - what can i do. Just except every thing? I guess so

I realize, that i am fast in reading and writing notes about it. So i just maybe need 15min. I should read more. My wife read proverbs. This is maybe helpful because i am not wise!
What about reading proverbs too. Without notes? I will do that.

1.Cor2,6 We do, however, speak a message of wisdom among the mature, but not the wisdom of this age or of the rulers of this age, who are coming to nothing. > YEAh - our wisdom is coming from the eternal - from all time - from GOD
7 No, we speak of God's secret wisdom, > Come one now - WE CAN SPEAK GODS WISDOM!!! a wisdom that has been hidden and that God destined for our glory before time began. > It was hidden. Now every body can see! IN HIS WORD. By learning form it.
This is so cool - We can have God's wisdom - WE HAVE GOD's WISDOM!
8 None of the rulers of this age understood it, for if they had, they would not have crucified the Lord of glory. > How important is it to UNDERSTAND Gods wisdom - other wise i kill Jesus.
What does it mean for me, that i can come to the point of UNDERSTANDING GOD's WISDOM!9 However, as it is written: No eye has seen, no ear has heard, no mind has conceived what God has prepared for those who love him - > IT IS FOR DOES WHO LOVE HIM!
Christoph - how about LOVING GOD! How is to become a true lover of God! GOD I WOULD FALL IN LOVE WITH YOU AGAIN! EVEN MORE.
Like yesterday i saw the Movie 'Amadeus'(MOZART) - i had tears - I've fallen in love again of his music. It was quick. It was intens.
I long for yo GOD - to see you - your power - your every thing.
God help me to open up!
God help me to stay i you! Ah what - i have no idea what to say! Jus empty words.
God i want to love you - i don't know how!
10 but God has revealed it to us by his Spirit. > I don't get it! The Spirit searches all things, even the deep things of God.  > Makes sense - so what!
11 For who among men knows the thoughts of a man except the man's spirit within him? > Some times i don't even know this! In the same way no-one knows the thoughts of God except the Spirit of God. > this is clear to me. Why does Paul even say it!
12 We have not received the spirit of the world but the Spirit who is from God, > OK - i can see - i have the inner, deepest, true self of God in me!!!!
ok
I must say and scream: WOW!
The most secret things God is thinking about - lives in me!
How can i hear it better?
How can i better realize what he is saying.
How can i communicate better.
What does it do to him, if he is saying constantly some things to me, but i would never do it, because i don't like - or what ever reason.
God help me to hear you and do it! Just to keep the conversation going!
that we may understand what God has freely given us. > i see a little bit - it is truly amazing! It is so awesome to have God's Spirit. His most privat thing lives in me. He is just sharing! WOW i can not believe. How can my life be so unchanged?
13 This is what we speak, not in words taught us by human wisdom but in words taught by the Spirit, expressing spiritual truths in spiritual words. > ok - again. I have no idea what he is talking about! No idea.
We speak not by human wisdom  - we speak by what the spirit is teaching me.
The spirit expresses(not just says) spiritual truth in spiritual words.
Spiritual truth are important.
Spiritual truth can only be expressed in spiritual words. Why that is important - i do not know!14 The man without the Spirit does not accept the things that come from the Spirit of God, for they are foolishness to him, and he cannot understand them, because they are spiritually discerned. > Ones i had no spirit. One i could not understand. How then was it, that i became a christian. 
15 The spiritual man makes judgments about all things, but he himself is not subject to any man's judgment:
16 For who has known the mind of the Lord that he may instruct him? But we have the mind of Christ./

15 Der geistliche Mensch dagegen beurteilt9 zwar alles, er selbst jedoch wird von niemand beurteilt. 

16 Denn "wer hat den Sinn10 des Herrn erkannt, dass er ihn unterweisen könnte?" Wir aber haben Christi Sinn.

> Absolutely no idea what Paul wants to say here.
If i am spiritual i judge all things
but i am not judged - by no one.
BECAUSE - yes by having the Spirit, i have the mind of the Lord Jesus Christ! HOW AWESOME!

SO - logical is, that no one understands the mind of christ, no one can give instruction to the mind of christ! AND. Since i am baptized i have the mind of christ and ...

Don't get it!

But the Spirit of men only knows what is in the mind of the men.
Now i have the Spirit of God - who only knows what is going on in God.
I KNOW THEREFOR WHAT IS GOING ON IN GOD!
I know it
What else, Christoph, do you want!!!???!!!

Have to think about Hebrew 4 - specially about vers 16
1 Therefore, since the promise of entering his rest still stands, let us be careful that none of you be found to have fallen short of it. > It could be surprising in the end - some of us will say: I AM SAVED - ALRIGHT! then God sais no! WHAT?
2 For we also have had the gospel preached to us, just as they did; but the message they heard was of no value to them, because those who heard did not combine it with faith. > Hearing combined with faith only helps! FAITH - FAITH - FAITH!!!! What do i believe now? DO I HAVE FAITH NOW FOR WHAT I AM DOING - PREPARING THE LESSON?

I am not thinking about having faith or not. I am just here. Like a tree. WHY AM I NOT THINKING MORE? REALIZING IF I HAVE FAITH! OR NOT!
3 Now we who have believed enter that rest, > BELIEVING IS THE KEY WHO OPENS THE DOOR IN TO THE REST OF GOD! just as God has said, So I declared on oath in my anger,'They shall never enter my rest.' And yet his work has been finished since the creation of the world. 

4 For somewhere he has spoken about the seventh day in these words: And on the seventh day God rested from all his work.  > God's rest - after 6days of making every thing!
5 And again in the passage above he says, They shall never enter my rest.
6 It still remains that some will enter that rest, and those who formerly had the gospel preached to them did not go in, because of their disobedience. > If i believe i enter - if i do not obey i will not enter. Believing is the same as then obeying. If i do not obey, i did not believe. I was just a hearer. Maybe a hearer in agreement! AM I JUST A HEARER IN AGREEMENT? ORE IS MY FAITH CHANGING MY LIFE AND I DO WHAT GOD WOULD DO?  

7 Therefore God again set a certain day, calling it Today, when a long time later he spoke through David, as was said before: Today, if you hear his voice, do not harden your hearts. > It is a very often used sentence.

8 For if Joshua had given them rest, God would not have spoken later about another day.   > The earthly rest is not the true rest! It is just a picture of rest, peace, heaven ...
9 There remains, then, a Sabbath-rest for the people of God;
10 for anyone who enters God's rest also rests from his own work, just as God did from his.  > We will be able to rest ones - FROM ALL THE WORK!
11 Let us, therefore, make every effort to enter that rest, so that no-one will fall by following their example of disobedience.  > Enter in to the rest God promised! God wants to give us rest! The same rest he has after finishing the world! REST REST REST!
12 For the word of God is living and active. Sharper than any double-edged sword, it penetrates even to dividing soul and spirit, joints and marrow; it judges the thoughts and attitudes of the heart.
13 Nothing in all creation is hidden from God's sight. Everything is uncovered and laid bare before the eyes of him to whom we must give account.

14 Therefore, since we have a great high priest who has gone through the heavens, Jesus the Son of God, let us hold firmly to the faith we profess.
15 For we do not have a high priest who is unable to sympathise with our weaknesses, > He knows how hard it is! He sympathise with my weakness  - not with me just, but with the part of my who is weak! but we have one who has been tempted in every way,  > He has experience! he knows what we are talking about just as we are- yet was without sin.  > He stayed faithful and true und without ever missing the point!

16 Let us then approach the throne of grace with confidence, > We come to a place where we truly are understood! HOW MUCH REST AND PEACE IT GIVES US IF WE FEEL - I AM UNDERSTOOD AND NOT CONDEMNED.  so that we may receive mercy and find grace to help us in our time of need. > It is still written into our time here living on earth. WE CAN FIND REST IN GOD HERE ON EARTH. WE CAN FIND THIS ANSWER - ME TOO, I UNDERSTAND.

AND

I can find mercy

I can find grace - IN MY TIME OF NEED

REST - GOD WANTS TO GIVE US REST.

HOW MUCH DO I DESIRE REST!?

Just this sense of true peace!

Of a moment of being truly excepted and loved and welcomed as i am!

Where all fighting ends

Where all struggles disappears

Where all fears can not enter anymore

Where i can finally come out of my self because i don't need to be afraid of being smashed, laughed at - where what i do and am finally works! 

This rest is so attractive!

LETS DO EVERY THING TO GO IN!

DO I REALIZE THIS OPPORTUNITY AHEAD OF ME?

The Paradise is not lost.

The Paradise is real!

I can go in their!

It is possible!

LET US ALL GO!

The Bible tels us how

OHHHhhhhh the Bible - The Bible tells me that i am unable und to weak ... to ever thinking to go in.

BUT

Jesus - he lived here - HE UNDERSTANDS ME!

HE WILL BE MERCYFUL

HE WILL GIVE ME GRACE WHEN I'M IN NEED!

REST IS AWAITING FOR US!

1.Cor2,1 When I came to you, brothers, I did not come with eloquence or superior wisdom as I proclaimed to you the testimony about God. > Eloquence and super great wisdom is not the point AT ALL! 
2 For I resolved to know nothing while I was with you except Jesus Christ and him crucified. > Paul just was focusing, talking about, remembering: Jesus Christ & that Jesus christ was crucified.
The life of Jesus and the death of Jesus.
When i would just know Jesus as it is written in the Gospel of John.
When i would just know Jesus killed on a cross.
What would that do to me. - Interesting, that he does not say: Christ raised. Maybe because the raising part only God can do. But the dying part - i have my free will to go so far! Jesus went so far. Love let him go so far.
Jesus lieved and died. God raised him. God did the miracles through him.
3 I came to you in weakness and fear, and with much trembling. > How Paul was:
WEAKNESS
FEAR
TREMBLING
I try to see Paul. How he comes in weak. How he is filled up with fear. So much, that he is trembling.
What would i do then. Paul still kept on going. Paul did not stop even the fear was shaking him. Even everybody saw his fear and all his weaknesses. Paul kept on going
What ever i feel:
CHRISTOPH, KEEP ON GOING!4 My message and my preaching were not with wise and persuasive words, but with a demonstration of the Spirit's power, > Wow - never saw that before. He was not the Francis Chan or the Andy Standly. He was not wise and he was not persuasive.
BUT THROUGH PAULS PREACHING
THE SPIRIT COULD DEMONSTRATE HIS POWER
How do i preach like that?
How do i behave and be like that, so the Spirit is able to demonstrate HIS POWER?
But also it is clear: Wisdom and persuasive words are not necessary for the spirit.
5 so that your faith might not rest on men's wisdom, but on God's power.
God's power is the only thing what i would like to experience and give.

STILL I DO NOT KNOW HOW CAN I BEHAVE, THAT THE SPIRIT CAN DEMONSTRATE HIS POWER. 
HOW CAN I PREACH THAT THE FAITH OF THE PEOPLE LISTENING IS RESTING ON GOD's POWER.
?

I do not know!

I can be fearful and weak and trembling - STILL: God's power can be visible. Still the power of the Holy Spirit can come through!

Christoph: Don't worry so much about your fears and weaknesses and your lake of wisdom.
The Holy Spirit is in me.

MY MESSAGE STILL CAN BE A DEMONSTRATION OF THE SPIRIT's POWER. MY MESSAGE STILL CAN GIVE PEOPLE REST ON GOD's POWER.

CHRISTOPH: Just don't stop because you feel fearful ore unwise ore trembling and full of weakness. Just keep on going. The Spirit is in me. God is every where!
KEEP ON GOING!
KEEP ON GOING!
KEEP ON GOING!
KEEP ON GOING!

1.Cor1,18 For the message of the cross is foolishness > The cross is foolishness. Because we think to die is the end. But it is the beginning. Because God is not powerful and he can not rise some one from the death. to those who are perishing,
but to us who are being saved it is the power of God. > The power of God. In the cros he made it possible to forgive us. God is love : Love became most powerful at the cross. 
19 For it is written:I will destroy the wisdom of the wise; the intelligence of the intelligent I will frustrate. > yeah - out of human wisdom no one would ever say: Yeah, lets die on a cross in order to save humanity!
20 Where is the wise man? Where is the scholar? Where is the philosopher of this age? Has not God made foolish the wisdom of the world? > When i see the world, how it goes and goes - i think i am not alone saying it isn't going well. It is going downhill!
21 For since in the wisdom of God the world through its wisdom did not know him, > In Romans Paul talks about the fact, that the world was not thankful to God as the reason why they have no faith. Here he talks, that wisdom does not make you knowing God. God was pleased through the foolishness of what was preached to save those who believe. > The foolishness of te preaching. The preaching which God can use to infuse faith in humans is than leading in people who believe God.
INFUSE FAITH IN HUMEN, WHEN YOU PREACH! CHRISTOPH! 
Wisdom is not the thing they need. THEY NEED FAITH!!!!!!
22 Jews demand miraculous signs and Greeks look for wisdom,  > Why? Because they were used to a God who did miraculous? The Miracle does not build faith. It just makes you wonder!
23 but we preach Christ crucified: a stumbling-block to Jews and foolishness to Gentiles,  > The Son of God on a cross : You can say - No way. You can say - stupid!
BUT WE PREACH CHRIST CRUCIFIED?
DO I ?24 but to those whom God has called, both Jews and Greeks, Christ the power of God and the wisdom of God.  > Here it comes again. GOD CALLED! Not men! It feels like true love. God is calling not me inviting some one. But through me God calls. This is awesome for me and for the person who is invited! But it is botom line never the act of the human but the act of God in the human. Both of them. The caller and the be called!
25 For the foolishness of God is wiser than man's wisdom, and the weakness of God is stronger than man's strength. > OK - yes 
26 Brothers, think of what you were when you were called. Not many of you were wise by human standards; not many were influential; not many were of noble birth. > How did the church look like? How does our church look like. How do i look like. I AM NOT IMPRESSIVE. But the love in the fellowship is impressive. Again: It is not Christoph. It is all of us. But not us - much more what we are together. The in between.
27 But God chose the foolish things of the world to shame the wise; God chose the weak things of the world to shame the strong. > I can see that. 2Million slaves are walking out of Aegypt. Gideon. David. Elia. Paul. Even Jesus, being impressive but died on a cross.
When can God work through my weeknes. When i am not selfish.
28 He chose the lowly things of this world and the despised things- and the things that are not- to nullify the things that are,
29 so that no-one may boast before him. > STOP BOASTING CHRISTOPH! BE humble! 
30 It is because of him that you are in Christ Jesus, > YES not because of me. GOD KEEP ME AS YOUR DISCIPLE! who has become for us wisdom from God- that is, our righteousness, holiness and redemption.
31 Therefore, as it is written: Let him who boasts boast in the Lord.

> Is my preaching infusing faith in people
> Am i preaching the cross
> Am i boasting in the Lord? I do not even know how to!
> Am i fighting selfishness to let God become strong through me? - DO I HAVE A FIGHT-PLAN?

1.Cor1,10 I appeal to you, brothers, / 10 Ich ermahne6 euch aber, Brüder,
> some times i do not takes serious if some one is appealing to me.
Appealing - is that serious?
Really?
I would say that it is serious!
in the name of our Lord Jesus Christ,
> If i would say some thing in the name of our Lord Jesus Christ - i would do this to give my appealing more weight.
So my appealing is more serious.
Lets listen more seriously now :-)
that all of you agree with one another so that there may be no divisions among you and that you may be perfectly united in mind and thought.
> OK now - this is the appealing:
ALL OF YOU
AGREE WITH OE ANOTHER
NO DIVISIONS AMONG YOU
THAT YOU MAY BE PERFECTLY UNITED - IN MIND AND THOUGHT

> So why then, do we have so many different churches?
> So why then, are churches often split up in groups of different philosophies, or believes, or convictions about what is important?
> So why then people are just leaving and move to other churches - would that even be possible in the first century? NO! They would need to fight through. Struggle through. Let go. Surrender. Love anyway.
> Why am i writing this? because i am in the church leadership and i want to have it easy?
How did i struggle through disunity in my own heart?
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I WOULD LIKE TO KNOW HOW TO BEHAVE WITH BROTHERS AND SISTERS WHO STRUGGLE NOW TO BE UNIFIED WITH THE CHURCHLEADERSHIP!
How can i be a good loving brother to them?

11 My brothers, some from Chloe's household have informed me that there are quarrels/Streitigkeiten among you.
> OK NOW - specifics: quarrels   -    about what?
12 What I mean is this: One of you says, I follow Paul; another, I follow Apollos; another, I follow Cephas; still another, I follow Christ. > OK - and i would say: This is exactly what we have today! Different philosophies.
I can not see it any different.
Who ever has more sympatis ... Because of what ever reason, maybe just personal - i like one more then the other, because of how some one communicates ori just have a easier way of connection and understanding.13 Is Christ divided? > What could that mean? Does Christ have a opinion about church-building philosophies? Does Christ car about gift of communication? Does Christ car about knowledge? Does Christ car about talents? Ore does Christ car about my love i have and my faith i have?
Was Paul crucified for you? > This is true. We behave as we died for others or our favorite preacher died for us or the book i am reading now from this amazing wise person who knows so deeply about church-building and how to motivate in a proper way died for me...
Were you baptised into the name of Paul? > Christ forgave me - no one else!
14 I am thankful that I did not baptise any of you except Crispus and Gaius, > That is a statement!
15 so no-one can say that you were baptised into my name.
(16 Yes, I also baptised the household of Stephanas; beyond that, I don't remember if I baptised anyone else.)  > I don't remember ... interesting - how to come in to a state of being, that i do not remember any more about baptism's?
17 For Christ did not send me to baptise, but to preach the gospel- not with words of human wisdom, lest the cross of Christ be emptied of its power./

 nicht in Redeweisheit, damit nicht das Kreuz Christi zunichte gemacht werde.

 > This is for ever deep.

NOT WITH WORDS OF HUMAN WISDOM!
Where do i use human wisdom?
Where does my human wisdom overpaint the cross.
Empty the cross of its power?
HOW IS THAT POSSIBLE?
WHAT ATITUDE IN MY HEART IS MAKING MY WORDS WISE BUT EMPTYING THE CORS OF ITS POWER?

1.Cor1,4 I always thank God for you because of his grace given you in Christ Jesus. > Paul thanks God for the church in Corinth! Because through the church in Corinth Paul gets God's grace. The church in Corinth is Grace given by God to Paul. That is how Paul feels!
About to me strangest person in the kingdom : Do i feel like this towards him, her?
Do i see, that every one in the church is a gracious gift from God towards me!
People :  We are way to critical about each other!5 For in him you have been enriched in every way- in all your speaking and in all your knowledge-
> God changed people already! They are so different since they became disciples. They speak differently, they know God - love, grace, mercy ... God did that.
God worked on to me most wired people!
6 because our testimony about Christ was confirmed in you./6 wie denn das Zeugnis des Christus unter4 euch gefestigt worden ist.  > Christ becomes stronger in them - of corse then ever. Because it was not in them before!
7 Therefore you do not lack any spiritual gift as you eagerly wait for our Lord Jesus Christ to be revealed. > They have no shortcomings ... They have the holy spirit too. God is giving them thoughts in their heart for me too!
What does eagerly waiting for the Lord Jesus Christ change in me? Am I eagerly waiting for the Lord Jesus Christ? 
8 He will keep you strong to the end, so that you will be blameless on the day of our Lord Jesus Christ. > Here it comes again. HE WILL KEEP YOU STRONG TO THE END!
I do not understand that at all! HE - through people? How - why he! What is going on! What are we doing? What are we hoping for? What are we supposed to do?
Röm 13,8 Seid niemand irgendetwas schuldig, als nur einander zu lieben! Denn wer den anderen liebt, hat das Gesetz erfüllt. /8 Let no debt remain outstanding, except the continuing debt to love one another, for he who loves his fellow-man has fulfilled the law. 
> To all of us who know it, all, every thing better: Give the love!
9 God, who has called you into fellowship with his Son Jesus Christ our Lord, is faithful.
> Funny that he is saying this now. 

Am i faithful to my fellow disciples?
Am i giving love?
Am i deeply thankful for even the strangest disciple in the kingdom of God? Do i see how i belong to him/her?
What ever i do, where ever i am, GOD IS FAITHFUL!

> I finished Romans. My Goal is still to get to know Paul. I don't know him yet. I lost him in the topics he talks about and what i felt by reading it. I did not see the brother behind anymore.
I read a comment about Romans now on my way in Berlin. But to understand more the content of Romans. Not because of Paul, who he is as a brother.

By reading Romans  i was distracted by the topic of Grace. I was even confused by it. I think this is the main reason why i lost my focus on Paul, my brother in Christ.

I do not know if i can catch the brother Paul. 

I do not know if i have to find Paul.
I need to find God even more.

I continue to read Pauls letters. Because of Paul. Because i never did. Because i need to find God.

1.Kor:1,1 Paul, called to be an apostle of Christ Jesus by the will of God > Paul is called. I know, it is not the first time i read this and i point it out. But as much Paul says it, it makes me think how much do i think about it? How much i am in deep faith, that i am called by God BUT to what exactly? , and our brother Sosthenes, > the writer - i guess.
2 To the church of God in Corinth, to those sanctified in Christ Jesus and called to be holy/2 an die Gemeinde2 Gottes, die in Korinth ist, den Geheiligten in Christus Jesus, den berufenen Heiligen,, > sanctified/geheiligte called to BE HOLY. Even i am made holy by God's grace, i am called to BE holy -.-.-.-.- together with all those everywhere who call on the name of our Lord Jesus Christ- their Lord and ours:  > How much do i think during my day - CHRISTOPH BE HOLY! ?
3 Grace and peace to you from God our Father and the Lord Jesus Christ. > Grace and peace from God
I need God's grace
I need God's peace
Even i am holy and a follower i am in need of God's GRACE
GOD GIVE ME PEACE IN MY HEART!
Help me to let go and trust you!
Specially in suffering - which produces perseverance. Perseverance produces Character. Character produces HOPE. HOPE NEVER FAILS.

Where today do i run away from suffering? Because i can not believe it is given by God for me to grow in peace and the realisation that i life in and through his grace?

Help me to not run away.

> MY FATHER IS GOD!

> MY LORD IS JESUS CHRIST!

What are they saying to me today?