I underlined in my Bible-reading some sentences - WHY?

MK14,72 Immediately the rooster crowed the second time.8 Then Peter remembered the word Jesus had spoken to him: “Before the rooster crows twice9 you will disown me three times.” And he broke down and wept.
> How quick Peter repented - immediately he was deeply broken - at least it seams like this to me - Could i cry so quickly?

MK15,10 knowing it was out of self-interest that the chief priests had handed Jesus over to him.
> He saw it - it was obvious - What is obvious to me and i don't say anything?

MK15,15 Wanting to satisfy the crowd, Pilate released Barabbas to them. He had Jesus flogged, and handed him over to be crucified.

> Flogging is on vers - v16-20 is about how they ridiculed Jesus.  - Is physical pain easier to handle then emotional pain -?-

MK15,21 A certain man from Cyrene, Simon, the father of Alexander and Rufus,(...)

> Alexander & Rufus: i guess 'we will meet them later in Acts again' - How must it have ben for Simon to take the cross of Jesus? I wish i would be Simon. To see the real Jesus/ walk with him/ side by side/just support a little little bit - : if i could see Jesus in the suffering people in my life more clear!

MK15,23(...)but he did not take it.

> Nothing waht Jesus help to endure the pain was acceptable for Jesus. Their are so many things i take to avoid or relieve pain: Food, Entertaining, Anger, Sin ...

MK15,25 It was nine in the morning when they crucified him.

MK15,29 Those who passed by hurled insults at him, shaking their heads and saying, “So! You who are going to destroy the temple and build it in three days, 30 come down from the cross and save yourself!” 31 In the same way the chief priests and the teachers of the law mocked him among themselves. “He saved others,” they said, “but he can’t save himself! 32 Let this Messiah, this king of Israel, come down now from the cross, that we may see and believe.” Those crucified with him also heaped insults on him.

> What happened in front of the hanging Jesus / what people ae saying / people who must have seen his miracles or even experienced it by them self / What are they saying? 

he should help him self / he should prove / Why are they saying this?

Why being angry with some one who just helped and loved always?

I don't know?

MK15,33 At noon, darkness came over the whole land until three in the afternoon.

> It was experienced even in Greece. Darkness. They had to make fire in order to guard the Son of God. Like it was night.

MK15,34 And at three in the afternoon Jesus cried out in a loud voice, “Eloi, Eloi, lema sabachthani?” (which means “My God, my God, why have you forsaken me?”).2 35 When some of those standing near heard this, they said, “Listen, he’s calling Elijah.” 36 Someone ran, filled a sponge with wine vinegar, put it on a staff, and offered it to Jesus to drink. “Now leave him alone. Let’s see if Elijah comes to take him down,” he said.

> They still knew, that if some would be heard by God - it was the men they nailed to the cross.

MK15,39 And when the centurion, who stood there in front of Jesus, saw how he died,3 he said, “Surely this man was the Son of God!”

> How did this Centurion feel in the moment he realized what is happening - what he did - what kind of action he was guarding!

MK15,40 Some women were watching from a distance. Among them were Mary Magdalene, Mary the mother of James the younger and of Joseph, and Salome. 41 In Galilee these women had followed him and cared for his needs. Many other women who had come up with him to Jerusalem were also there.

> Many women where their. Where are the men?

MK15,43 Joseph of Arimathea, a prominent member of the Council, who was himself waiting for the kingdom of God, went boldly to Pilate and asked for Jesus’ body.

> He was in the meetings where they sentenced Jesus to death!

MK16,8 Trembling and bewildered, the women went out and fled from the tomb. They said nothing to anyone, because they were afraid. 9 When Jesus rose early on the first day of the week, he appeared first to Mary Magdalene, out of whom he had driven seven demons.

> I like the ending because it is not the ending. When people red this, they realized, that completely fearful women did not remain silent! They overcame - because otherwise, we would not read know what Mark wrote down for us!

Am i overcoming my fears and weaknesses? Because i believe and know - JESUS? DO I?