Easter is over. It is Tuesday. Yesterday we had a long walk through Berlin. From Alexanderplatz till Home - 4hours. We were very tired after all - Nick eat his dinner and started sleeping at the table! Never really happened before.
We saw so mony great places on our way. Amazing town Berlin. So many people, so many lifes. All souls. We just went through and by them. No interaction. Amazing - we can walk 4hours through a Boomtown and by 1000 of people and having no interaction. Just one Policeman was not happy with the stones my kids liked and had with them - he toke them away. Someone was running behind us and brought us the little baby-pingu Nina lost some minutes ago. Very friendly! When i bought the dinner, the lady in the shop was very friendly. Probably 3 people. A Italian tourist said hello to Nick, while Nick was digging something in the grass. Nick always smiles to the people.
We never reach out to others. We saw a street-danceshow - when they started to collect many - we smiled and walked away, we smiled into other peoples faces who smiled and walked away too - not really interaction.
We thought it is our day. Not a day in which we reach out. Who knows. But what am i able to do on a other day? We will see today.
I was reading the end of the Passion of Christ in Mark:15,20-41
They do a lot to him. He is just there. He does not drink the drink before they nail him. What a detail! The third hour is the nailing hour. The sixth hour is the hour hanging three hours and becomeing just dark. It stays dark till the ninth hour. The ninth hour is the hour when Jesus dies.
He is hanging for 6hour.
I thought about Simon from Kyrene. Maybe he had to cary the cross because after flogging Jesus, the back of Jesus was destroyed that Jesus just could not carry anything on his back, were the rips and his spine was partially visible.
In the end Jesus is calling out: Eli, Eli, lama sabachtani?
Real aramaic.
A question.
I like to think that he was inwardly praying the Psalm22.
Was he really alone now?
Was he hanging on scripture to connect his thoughts to Gods Word and not to his own thinking? Never leaving the live stream and the creating power? Was just love to the word of God the bottom of the heart of Jesus? Pain went through it all and did not find anything else.
Some really wanted to go and give him vinegar - but other stop them(!) TO SEE IF ELIJAH WOULD COME AND TAKE HIM.
They do not want to help, but see.
If one of the robbers would have screamed this - would they have sad, lets see if Elijah is coming?
Could it be, that they thought, Jesus was a holy man, never sinned, helped all the time, maybe really God is reaching out to him now.
We killed him but God will help out - because, yes, he really loved us!
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I have a lot of time today to write.
What is coming at me, when i read this verses about the last moments in the live of Jesus.
He does not drink - i believe for me. So i have it easier to believe his love for me. He was not drunk, when they nailed him. He was always in his right mind - thinking about me.
It came a darkness - was seen all over the region, even in Greece.
How dangerous was it for the hole earth. Gods Son is hanging on a cross. Little people did stupid things. But God is not whipping all of us out. Just darkness.
Jesus was hanging 6hours.
Many people went by - everybody knew him.
Like today.
The Berliner Dom has in gold quotes from Jesus on the facade. Everybody is more interested on street-dance, then on the death of the Son of God. We walked all by.

39 And when the centurion, who stood there in front of Jesus, heard his cry and saw how he died, he said, Surely this man was the Son of God!

What was it, that he saw?
But what did he, with this understanding?
Did it change his life?
We do not know! Would it be normal, if we would meet him a week after the crucifixion, unchanged somewhere in Jerusalem doing what ever:
"Hey, what happened last week?"
- "Crucifixion!"
"Have you seen it?"
- "Oh yes, i was the leader of it."
"Who was crucified?"
- "2 Robbers and the Son of God!"
"The Son of Who?"
- "I have no doubt, it was the Son of God!"
"And now - what do you do? What can we do now?"
- "Don't know - at least, nothing special happened since - so, what ever - "
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It is ending with the description of the women standing far and watching it all.
They served him.
They came with him to Jerusalem.
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This is the last scene
A guy who is sure, that he killed the Son of God
Women standing far away but watching it all
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What will they all do the next day?
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What will i do today - since i believe absolutely, that i killed Jesus.
What will i do today - since i am standing from far away - far in history.
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Does it change my life for today?
Or, if someone coming and talking to me - is my life and words: "What ever - "
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Eph6,19 Pray also for me, that whenever I open my mouth, words may be given me so that I will fearlessly make known the mystery of the gospel,

20 {for which I am an ambassador in chains.[I am not in chains]} Pray that I may declare it fearlessly, as I should.