Rom9,30 What then shall we say? That the Gentiles, who did not pursue righteousness, have obtained it, a righteousness that is by faith;
31 but Israel, who pursued a law of righteousness, has not attained it. > They get the law from God
32 Why not? Because they pursued it not by faith but as if it were by works. > Instead of believing, living in a relationship with God, trusting him always, he is good, always helping ... - i can life as every thing hangs on me. As if i need to make the different. But this is living as if God isn't here or as if i could earn something by God.  They stumbled over the stumbling-stone. > I think, this i do many times. Stumble into a life of : I am responsible - God is not here. I am alone! I need to earn my merit. I can not earn anything by God. I have every thing from him - all the time - for free - he wants to bless me - but if i want to do every thing on my own. It would not be good, if i would be blessed by him! So he is probably waiting with blessing me till i let go. Till i give him control over all of it! So i become open for what GOOD HE WANTS TO GIVE ME! THIS IS AWESOME! I AM CURIOUS WHAT GOOD IS GOD GIVING ME TODAY! ? :-) 
33 As it is written: See, I lay in Zion a stone that causes men to stumble and a rock that makes them fall, and the one who trusts in him will never be put to shame.
> THIS IS AMAZING - the one who trusts in him will never be put to shame.
My biggest fear is to be shamed.
Just trust in Jesus.
I WILL NEVER BE PUT TO SHAME! NEVER EVER - NO SHAME ANYMORE!
If i just can learn to trust him.
Learn to let go
Learn to giving it over to him
God change my heart!