> I finished Romans. My Goal is still to get to know Paul. I don't know him yet. I lost him in the topics he talks about and what i felt by reading it. I did not see the brother behind anymore.
I read a comment about Romans now on my way in Berlin. But to understand more the content of Romans. Not because of Paul, who he is as a brother.

By reading Romans  i was distracted by the topic of Grace. I was even confused by it. I think this is the main reason why i lost my focus on Paul, my brother in Christ.

I do not know if i can catch the brother Paul. 

I do not know if i have to find Paul.
I need to find God even more.

I continue to read Pauls letters. Because of Paul. Because i never did. Because i need to find God.

1.Kor:1,1 Paul, called to be an apostle of Christ Jesus by the will of God > Paul is called. I know, it is not the first time i read this and i point it out. But as much Paul says it, it makes me think how much do i think about it? How much i am in deep faith, that i am called by God BUT to what exactly? , and our brother Sosthenes, > the writer - i guess.
2 To the church of God in Corinth, to those sanctified in Christ Jesus and called to be holy/2 an die Gemeinde2 Gottes, die in Korinth ist, den Geheiligten in Christus Jesus, den berufenen Heiligen,, > sanctified/geheiligte called to BE HOLY. Even i am made holy by God's grace, i am called to BE holy -.-.-.-.- together with all those everywhere who call on the name of our Lord Jesus Christ- their Lord and ours:  > How much do i think during my day - CHRISTOPH BE HOLY! ?
3 Grace and peace to you from God our Father and the Lord Jesus Christ. > Grace and peace from God
I need God's grace
I need God's peace
Even i am holy and a follower i am in need of God's GRACE
GOD GIVE ME PEACE IN MY HEART!
Help me to let go and trust you!
Specially in suffering - which produces perseverance. Perseverance produces Character. Character produces HOPE. HOPE NEVER FAILS.

Where today do i run away from suffering? Because i can not believe it is given by God for me to grow in peace and the realisation that i life in and through his grace?

Help me to not run away.

> MY FATHER IS GOD!

> MY LORD IS JESUS CHRIST!

What are they saying to me today?