Monday after the conference
It was the best conference ever - many, mand told me.
I write that down, so that i do not forget.
GOD DID THAT. IT WAS FOR SURE NOT DASHA AND ME.

Now i am down and out - heard hard stuff. I am still down. Hope the Bible helps me out now! Prayed already. Was helpful. Learn to pray when it is dificulte!

Have no ideas what is coming now - it is long time ago, that i would study this: OK now:
Acts20,32 Now I commit you to God
> Paul is saying good by - : - i am commited to God - To no one else!
and to the word of his grace,
> God has grace - why do i have so little grace. What is hitting me, that i go so much down?
which can build you up
> Grace is the only thing what builds me up! DO I SEE THAT GOD NEED GRACE FOR ME. DO I SEE HOW MUCH GRACE HE NEEDED FOR ME!
and give you an inheritance among all those who are sanctified.
> I have inheritance. I am at home in heaven. I have God as my father. I am all set. I will leive for ever in paradise, heaven ... endless perfection, beauty and love!
33 I have not coveted anyone's silver or gold or clothing.

> I could not say this at all! 
34 You yourselves know that these hands of mine have supplied my own needs and the needs of my companions. > I could never say that  - i always get supported, every where. I am like the Son who stayed home but had no interest to go to the party for his younger brother.
35 In everything I did, I showed you that by this kind of hard work we must help the weak,

> everything he did was hard work - It was all about helping the weak. It was not about him. He wanted to show something. What do i want to show.

 remembering the words the Lord Jesus himself said: 'It is more blessed to give than to receive.'

> This was the mindset of Paul. GIVE! Because it is blessed. If i am giving hard working i will be blessed! AWESOME! Incredible Paul! 
36 When he had said this, he knelt down with all of them and prayed.

> Pray as a group, pray alone, pray always! I prayed today morning - it was very helpful - yes...
37 They all wept as they embraced him and kissed him.

> How much he had loved them! How close he was to all of them!
38 What grieved them most was his statement that they would never see his face again.

> They sad good by for the rest of their life. How would it be to say good by to some people, for the rest of my life? Would i cray? Why not? How do i LOVE others! Am i giving so much, that people will missing me!

Then they accompanied him to the ship. >  This was it then.